torn...

things i often tell jackson:

you are such a big boy!

look at how big you're getting!

roll buddy, you can do it!

r  e  a  c  h

s  t  r  e  t  c  h

grow grow grow.

eat your cereal, it will make you bigger.

when you're bigger you can do so much more.

sleep through the night like a big boy for mama.

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things i often think to myself:

you're getting too big.

stop growing.

where has my tiny baby gone?

don't you want to snuggle for hours?

you don't really want to be independent.

you don't want big boy food.

i don't want to share you with the world yet.

you want mama forever...mama wants you all to herself.

(sigh)

i didn't realize that growing pains still applied to me.