guess who titled the blog?...

i found out i was pregnant on monday, february 15th around 3pm. i had just gotten home from a nice long weekend with my family and i was one day late. the optimist in me thought that i might finally be pregnant and the pessimist in me wanted to officially rule it out in order to prep for the inevitable. this time optimism won.

i was so excited i couldn't believe it. there was no way i was reading the at home pregnancy test right. was that a plus? really this time? A PLUS? i immediately went to the store and bought a digital read out pregnancy test. three minutes later i was staring at a screen that very clearly said "pregnant".

now how to tell husband/daddy to be? i had a few hours to think about it and research the internet for ideas, but in the end it was all about timing. we sat through a nice dinner together, caught up on our lives since i had been gone, even watched an hour of tv in each others company, all without saying a word about the baby. it was very hard to sit there quietly when all i really wanted to do was sing from the rooftops. however, before we went to bed that night the moment presented itself. he told me of his plans to be busy in early december and i told him i couldn't travel alone to my family's annual holiday party. he said that that it wouldn't be a big deal and i reiterated that i really couldn't travel alone because i wanted to take our baby to wisconsin together. to that he replied with a few ha-has and a roll of the eyes, but it wasn't long before he knew i was serious (it also helped that i showed him the positive result on the pregnancy test).

as the news sank in, i wondered how he was feeling about everything and a few seconds later he expressed that life was over as we knew it. exactly, i thought with a smile. exactly.